“This Is How You Lose The Time War”
I like stories that are told in interesting ways, and this promised something like that. I didn’t quite know what to expect and having finished it, I’m left with the weird feeling I shouldn’t have liked it, but I really did.
I Hate My Smile
I don’t like my smile, and I haven’t done for a long time. But in recent times, I’ve found myself being pushed to acknowledge these feelings, recognise they are unnecessary, and put them behind me.
“The Evening and the Morning” by Ken Follett
I enjoyed The Evening and the Morning, but it’s not Follett’s best work. And unfortunately, comparisons with the previous books in the series only serve to highlight its flaws.
Why I’ve Started Therapy
t would seem like it’s a simple answer here. My marriage has ended. I’m going through a separation. The end of a long-term relationship is a traumatic experience.
But, as always in life, there’s more to my decision than that.
“The Man in the Picture” by Susan Hill
When you go into a Susan Hill ghost story, you know what you’re expecting. She has shown over and over that she is a master of the gothic horror story. And with The Man In The Portrait, you get exactly what you expect.
I’m Taking Antidepressants
Since the end of last year, I’ve been on anti-depressants. To be honest, this is what I wanted when I started therapy back in the summer. But a few years ago my attitude would have been very different.
“Sword of Fire” by Katharine Kerr
With Sword of Fire, Kerr manages to hit all the same notes I loved about the Deverry books, but it’s missing that uniqueness of the original series.
2020: Looking back, then forward
Well, 2020 can fuck off. Thank you for coming to my TED Talk. Okay, if I have to be honest, my 2020 could have been a lot worse. A lot worse. In some very big ways, I am incredible lucky.
Film of the Year 2020: ‘The Platform’ (dir. Galder Gaztelu-Urrutia)
I didn’t watch a lot of new films this year. For various reasons, my TV and film consumption has been mostly restricted to nostalgia and comfort viewing. However, back at the start of this whole mess, I stumbled upon "The Platform".
Game of the Year 2020: 'Spiritfarer' (Thunder Lotus Games)
I don’t do one of these every year. I’m not a big gamer. I enjoy games, and usually have at least one game on the go. But I don’t play enough to get through that many each year, and I don’t like to force a “Game of the Year” if nothing really jumped out at me. Some years, however, I discover games like Thunder Lotus Games’ Spiritfarer.
Book of the Year 2020: 'Out of Love' by Hazel Hayes
Sometimes my favourite book of the year is one that had the best story. Or maybe its one that displayed the most engaging writing. Or perhaps it will have introduced me to a new writer I know I’m going to love.In 2020, it’s a book that was exactly what I needed at exactly the time I read it: Hazel Hayes’ "Out of Love"
Buying Books Ethically (with Bookshop.org)
Christmas is coming, and we all know what that means, don't we? Getting those Reading Piles topped up!But where are you planning to buy those wonderful books for your friends and loved ones?
“Out of Love” by Hazel Hayes
I am a sucker for stories told out of chronological order, so Out of Love caught my eye a while ago. I don’t know why the concept appeals to me so much. I think it’s something about examining cause and affect, playing around with what the reader knows and when, that somehow suits my sensibilities.
My Need for Structure
Do I need structure, or do I need freedom? Am I using structure as a cage to hide myself from new possibilities that might be scary or hard? Am I using it to give myself a sense of utility, and therefore meaning to other people? Or is this how I get things done?
Reading and Writing are hard
Reading and writing are hard. They shouldn’t be hard. They’ve never been hard before. Why are they hard? What do you do when the things that make you the happiest become so hard to do that you begin to wonder if they are worth it?
My life, right now, is not great
I’m depressed. I keep telling myself that I’m better than I was. That the last five months have been a slow but steady improvement and I just need to keep pushing. But that’s not true. I’m still just as bad as I was then. All that’s changed is I’m learning to cope better, and I’m accepting there is light at the end of the tunnel.
“Learning from the Germans” by Susan Neiman
Every country has racism. But is that something we need to face, hold up, and forever atone for? Or something to move past and forget? (Spoiler, it’s the first one). Neiman, as a Jewish woman who grew up in the American South in the ‘60s, and has since lived in Berlin in the ‘80s, as well as Israel along the way, has a rather unique perspective of how different cultures dealt with their legacies.
"Pyramids" by Terry Pratchett
With all the... well, everything... that is going on in my life right now, I feel a little comfort reading is in order. In that vein, expect a few Pratchett’s to appear on here. Especially the earlier books which, I feel, are his best.